Resolution/Clarification

Samantha and I have talked a few times since that last post. I think we've come to some understanding. I don't really want to post about it and probably shouldn't have to begin with, but hey, I was upset. Suffice it to say, we are not breaking up just yet, and we'll talk more when she gets home (which is still 1.5 weeks away). *sigh*

Singular Man Returns

A hearty welcome back to the Blogosphere to Singular Man! Nice to see you back, D00D!

Is This The End?

I attempted to post a haiku via audioblogger yesterday. It seemed to work, but it has not shown up yet so I don't know what the deal is or whether I should try again. Considering my current mood, probably not. Anyway, a warning -- whiny note follows!

Samantha's best friend lives in Portland, and she is visiting her now. In the past she has said she'd like to move to Portland, and I said I would look at jobs there. My expectation when I said this was that perhaps in a year or so if we are married (or at least engaged) we might move there. In the meantime I've been considering a job change here. I sent her an email Monday with info about the benefits for a job here that I just applied for, and got the following response:

I think you seriously need to start looking for jobs in Portland. You promised me you would look and you aren't looking. So look.

Okay, I suppose that is fair enough. It's a misunderstanding between us, but not one that needs to be rectified right now. I replied:

It was my understanding that we weren't thinking about this until January. It's too soon. However, I will look so as to get a feel for what's up.

And this morning I woke to find this response:

It's not too soon. Because I am moving to Portland.

No "we".

Another Break

Samantha left Wednesday for a 3-week trip to visit friends and family... I miss her already.

Things have continued to develop in our relationship. We're still taking dance lessons (fun!) and she started school last week. We get along pretty well; we fight from time to time, but generally speaking I think we fight fair, and at least we aren't generally too passive-aggressive.

We do have some conflicts that are going to take major time and compromise to work through, and they are the ones that concern me most. They are big life issues like, what kind of future do we envision together? If we were to marry eventually, what would that be like and what would our expectations be?

In some ways we are definitely getting ahead of ourselves -- but we love each other and want very much to have a future together, so it's important to talk these things through.